Sankalpa

Yesterday I feel was another step along the road to recovery. Its been some journey lost two family members, life changing injuries but my brother and myself were out on day out in Wicklow the day after my mothers second anniversary and we both realised how far we have come. It was the filming that really blew me away. To hear the passion, honesty, drive and compassion from Tom, Aine and Emer really got to me. Also I got on camera myself and to also hear from fellow participants who I know personally and bonded with how hard it is for everyone but the knowledge, information and experiences we gain here will be taken and used throughout our lives. I feel there’s no certain point in Sankalpa where things just hit u and then everything were doing makes perfect sense like pieces of a jigsaw put into place. Its like u see things more clearly say parts of the programme make sense what the programme is trying to give us. I’m learning about myself, the past, life and the life dealing skills will all give me and all the people here a better chance to get to where they want to get to. I personally could never thank everyone enough as I’m down from 75mls of methadone to 30 and I m confident that with continued support , facilities and friends and staff ill be clean and stay clean. Its my third shot my first detox was done in Mayo under the supervision of a GP and although It was successful I feel I took myself out of the area and the deep routed problems that played a part were buried under the determination and focus and moving back to Dublin I ended up slipping. My second attempt was soon after I found myself in Mountjoy I came down from 80 mls to 20 mls and stopped collecting the 20 I feel now I was punishing myself for earlier let down and snap me out of what I was doing with my life. Both were done without support and my will had a breaking point. I found Sankalpa on web and I lost two family members in two years to add to the mix plus a life threatening injury so I believe if I hadn’t found here I probably would be dead. Im in a good place and the trip yesterday showed me I can have the quality of life that I want Ive put in the hard work now I’m seeing the results. What I learned is Sankalpa works and once your willing to put in the effort and hard work there’s no limits to where you can go and no limits to the help, support, understanding and most importantly respect. I’m hoping to finish this journey with continued support and councilling and my aims to be totally drug free, safe and decent housing also to continue linking to try have lasting employment and depending on circumstances probably college. Yesterdays trip for me was another step for me so thanks to Sankalpa for the structure, support and understanding.

MARK B

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