I was knocking around doing nothing in September 08 and had an apartment in town for four years prior to this story. It was in that apartment I slipped into a very bad habit of doing nothing and taking drugs. It was drink and cocaine that I was taking but then when the parties were all over I was left with a filthy flat smelling of drink and smoke. I then got offered to smoke gear, which I tried but really did not like. I already had a problem with tablets to relax me. It was when I was told about being able to buy molly (that’s the street name for it, methadone is the pharmacists name) so I didn’t think much of it but bought some and drank it. It was all grand until I realised I had gotten meself a problem with it. I started needing it. So I signed up for to get on a program to get something I had at one stage despised.
I then just gave up my apartment and came back to my mother’s where I would not have been able to do half the things I done in my flat. At the same time I tried to stop taking the methadone and could not sleep for three days in my mother’s, and then with a lot of shame went and told my mother I had this problem. So she agreed to help me. I went up to the clinic and they took me on cause I had been on the clinic in town for four months and had a plan to get stable and start coming down off it. So as well as that I had to do something to keep my mind busy and to try to get a bit of structure in my life. I only palled with one mate and it himself that told me about this course that was called millennium but is now called Sankalpa.
It was there for the first time in 5 years I had a little structure in my life. I was getting up and going in and they were quite helpful, they made a plan with me to gradually get meself back to the way I was and off this methadone. Since I’ve been here I’ve come down 15ml – 5ml a month for the last 3 months, and they make out a plan to get your life outside Sankalpa back in order. So at present I am on the housing list, seeing my kid twice a week and feel great with the bit of structure back in my life. Cause I had been a worker before I fell into this rut. And getting up and out in the morning has been great and when I’m at my mother’s she loves it knowing I’m doing something and it’s helping me. My mother came down to the church to watch us play the drums, which is something I never would have done if I wasn’t in Sankalpa. I get to learn about computers and I’ve a lot of interest in the ceramics. I’m actually doing a portfolio so as that I can hopefully be ready by September this year to go to a college and learn what I don’t already know. I’m quite good with my hands and the ceramics is my favourite.
The money is good and helps a lot but it’s the structure and the getting clean that motivates me. I’ve signed up for the course in September so hopefully I’ll be ready and each different class is enjoyable. We get to try new things every day. Me myself I think it has given me a lot and I’m making progress. It’s quite good, the staff are quite good and the other clients are alright. Getting the structure back in my life was a really good thing for me. That is really important to me, not to stay in bed and miss half a day. When I get up and get into work it’s great. You get to socialize and they try to help you in every aspect of your life and I have a lot going since I joined and I never know what we’ll be doing tomorrow. Hopefully I’ll get off my methadone but slowly does it.
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